No Lingering.
January 31, 2003 10:04 a.m.
Wow, it's amazing I'm getting a chance to make an
entry. John and my mom went to rent a storage unit. We're supposedly
moving, but I don't see it happening anytime soon. Although I would
love to get out of this small house, I just don't see it happening.
I've packed almost everything I own, which took up the entire three
boxes. One box was just packed full of Lord of the Rings merchandise
and my vinyl misfits collection. I don�t have a record player so there
is no use in keeping them out. We have a lot more room in the house
because everything has made its way to the storage unit. Don't worry�
if we move I'll still have the most precious of commodities, the
computer, heh.
Am I the only one that knows about mint M&M�s? They're kick ass,
and really good, in my humble opinion. We have two bags still left over
from Christmas, I'm trying to ration them out so that we have them for
a while. I guess Mars (the candy company) only releases those M&M�s
around the holiday seasons. This sucks, because I really like them. I
guess it's best for me not to eat them anyway, it will only go to the
thighs. All girls know what I�m talking about.
I belatedly went to see the elf dog Arwen. At first I was looking
forward to it, but when Alexis and I walked up to their house, I guess
they didn't see me, they were dragging her out of the house and
chaining her up on their porch. The boy that dragged her out looked as
though he was going to hit her, that�s when I spoke up and said 'hi'.
He turned and said 'hi' in an awkward tone, because he had no idea who
I was, so I explained to him, and was welcomed on their porch to see
her. She was covered in mud, and cold. I asked why she was all muddy
and the mom came out and said they were draining the swimming pool and
Arwen went out and was running through the water. I felt so bad for
her, than realized how mischievous Arwen had been when I had her. So I
forced a smile.
The boy�s mother said "You need to give her a bath." I thought it was a
rather funny coincidence that I had brought the puppy shampoo I forgot
to give them when they first came to pick her up. I stuck around for a
while and pet Arwen, even though she in return got me all muddy. She
whined and pulled at her chain, as if she wanted to come with me. But
after talking to all six
of the ladies kids, I convinced myself Arwen had a good home. The kids
loved her, they were bringing her in to give her a bath as I left. I
miss her a lot, but I can go see her whenever I want. I'm happy about
that. My mind was toying with my heart is what it was. I wanted to
believe she was being mistreated so I could snatch her back up. And
take her back home. I'�m glad she has so many kids to play with. She�ll
be happy there, and I've finally come to peace with that.
What really riled me, is that my mom said I had to get rid of Arwen
because the house is too small, and she was chewing things up... but now
we�re supposedly moving into a much bigger house with a fenced in yard.
But anyhow I'll try my best not to ask "what if". It does not do good
to dwell on the past , as I�ve heard before.
Oh yes, I must not forget to tell you all about my �interview� with
Dial America. Well, I had went in to dial America for my �interview�
and I only brought a copy of my Social Security card, so after sitting
there for 35 minutes I went to go in, and I couldn�t even get through
the door without an official Social Security card. That pissed me off,
but I�m glad I was there I was able to observe how they run things.
They yell at the person while they�re on the phone trying to make a
sell �Come on sell two more in two minutes, let�s go people�. My first
thought �Aw, Hell no.� So I didn�t go back to get an official
interview, that is definitely not my type of work. So Monday I get to
go Job hunting again. I�m seriously considering moving up with Vikki, and working there. There is nothing here... at all. I hate Florida with a passion.
Quote of the Moment: "It's not that some people have willpower and some
don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not."
--James Gordon, M.D.